First day off and boy do I need it.
merkin sent me a photo yesterday featuring a fake tattoo with my name on it - awwww. I told her that I had it as my desktop but I forgot to mention that I didn't really. Not that I wouldn't put it up but that would be a little too creepy even for me and I have a picture of my nephew on there anyway. Merkin reckons she looks better if you can't see her face but I just think she's being silly - no-one likes the way they look and if they do they have bigger things to worry about. I'm not going to turn this into a "Merkin says" blog though - she's got her own to do that in
This may sound a little odd, heartless even but I wasn't sure which one of my friends had ended his life. I know a couple people with similar names and I got on better with one than the other. It's never easy when dealing with suicide but it was the one I didn't get on with as well. It doesn't make a vast amount of difference to me - the fact is that they were both friends once and I wouldn't wish death on anyone. I'm still not sure if it has sunk in properly yet because I'm not feeling anything at all. Actually, maybe I am but it is just mixing in with the other bad news of the week and can't make itself heard.
Again, all this sounds a bit morose but it's not - I'm starting to see this as a new beginning for me. I spoke to another old (but still current) friend of mine and we caught up on about a years worth of gossip. She's fine and seems to know what she wants - someone else to be proud of. She called me yesterday to tell me about Ben but I missed the call and got the news via email from another friend. If I don't start using names soon this is all going to be very confusing.
Time for a musing I think:
Last night I watched "The Crow" and it reminded me of my early days as a student. At the time I would have been around 22 but I was still very much the moping teenager. Once a day (without exaggeration) I would watch "The Crow" and immediately listen to Albinoni's Adagio for Strings in G minor. It was like a ritual, an offering to the gods of pretention but I had a "good" reson for doing it. My reason was this: I could be killed or die at any point in the future - There's a chance I could die right now therefore, If I carry out the aforementioned ritual on a daily basis I will die knowing that I had spent the best part of 2 hours experiencing things that I love. Looking back it was a stupid thing to think but at the time I was a stupid person.
I still love "The Crow" but I wouldn't call it my favourite film and I still adore Albinoni - he makes a great means of escape from the usual stuff I listen to. Geez, I am still pretentious!!
Today's Word: HINDSIGHT
Today's Mood: Stormin'
merkin sent me a photo yesterday featuring a fake tattoo with my name on it - awwww. I told her that I had it as my desktop but I forgot to mention that I didn't really. Not that I wouldn't put it up but that would be a little too creepy even for me and I have a picture of my nephew on there anyway. Merkin reckons she looks better if you can't see her face but I just think she's being silly - no-one likes the way they look and if they do they have bigger things to worry about. I'm not going to turn this into a "Merkin says" blog though - she's got her own to do that in
This may sound a little odd, heartless even but I wasn't sure which one of my friends had ended his life. I know a couple people with similar names and I got on better with one than the other. It's never easy when dealing with suicide but it was the one I didn't get on with as well. It doesn't make a vast amount of difference to me - the fact is that they were both friends once and I wouldn't wish death on anyone. I'm still not sure if it has sunk in properly yet because I'm not feeling anything at all. Actually, maybe I am but it is just mixing in with the other bad news of the week and can't make itself heard.
Again, all this sounds a bit morose but it's not - I'm starting to see this as a new beginning for me. I spoke to another old (but still current) friend of mine and we caught up on about a years worth of gossip. She's fine and seems to know what she wants - someone else to be proud of. She called me yesterday to tell me about Ben but I missed the call and got the news via email from another friend. If I don't start using names soon this is all going to be very confusing.
Time for a musing I think:
Last night I watched "The Crow" and it reminded me of my early days as a student. At the time I would have been around 22 but I was still very much the moping teenager. Once a day (without exaggeration) I would watch "The Crow" and immediately listen to Albinoni's Adagio for Strings in G minor. It was like a ritual, an offering to the gods of pretention but I had a "good" reson for doing it. My reason was this: I could be killed or die at any point in the future - There's a chance I could die right now therefore, If I carry out the aforementioned ritual on a daily basis I will die knowing that I had spent the best part of 2 hours experiencing things that I love. Looking back it was a stupid thing to think but at the time I was a stupid person.
I still love "The Crow" but I wouldn't call it my favourite film and I still adore Albinoni - he makes a great means of escape from the usual stuff I listen to. Geez, I am still pretentious!!
Today's Word: HINDSIGHT
Today's Mood: Stormin'
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