It's ok folks, he's alive...
I'm sorry this has been so bitty recently but I have had a lot and nothing to do all at the same time. Last night I had a huge wibble which resulted in me having a bit of a sob (actually I bawled like a baby) but I put it down to trying to let out some of the stress I have been feeling. Looking back on it it was funny really because I was having a real crisis instead of just trying to have one. My main problem was this:
I rattle!
No, I don't mean that I physically rattle or that I am having chest problems (although I am) I mean that I am like a pea in a great big drum. I'm also conflicted - I relish my time alone but I hate being lonely. When I was at Alison's she was generally asleep when I was awake but she was there at least and I had to regulate my behaviour accordingly. Now, however, I am on my own (until September) so I can do what I want or, more accurately, I can do what I want as long as it doesn't involve closing any curtains! I think I'm a bit lonely and the computer, whilst being a bit of a comfort, doesn't really fill the void. I spoke to the people that really matter last night which helped a lot and I want to thank them for it. I went to bed angry, slept badly, woke up with heartburn and came to work a bit miffed. I'm fine now though, just weirded out by the whole experience.
I still haven't managed to buy a fridge and it seems to be more difficult than buying a house. I have tried like crazy to buy one and it's alwaysreally easy until... "Yes, we do have it in stock Mr Dibbie. How is next [insert unsuitable date here] for you?". At this point the whole process crumbles. I'm a rota man these days so it's hard for me to find a time when I will be available to take delivery. I am facing a period of being in work everyday for 6 days so I just won't be around to accept delivery. I could probably persuade Alex to get the van again but if I have it delivered it is not my responsibility if it gets broken.
Forget all that - I just ordered one online and it's coming next Friday \o/. It's still quite a way away but at least I know it'll be coming and that's made me feel better.
I have been updating my weebl blog more than this place recently but there is a good reason for that. In here I have to talk about myself and remain sensible so I have been resrving myself and making sure that this is as enjoyable to read as it is to write. My Weebl blog however is just full of crap. I keep writing it and people are finding it funny almost despite itself. I suppose I'm a bit of an attention junkie and in my search for validation comments go a long way.
I've got loads of people I should be bigging up but there isn't enough room. You've made a big impact on my life recently and without you things would have been so much harder for me - You know who you are and you should know how much I appreciate it.
Today's Word: VENT
Today's Mood: Overfloating
I'm sorry this has been so bitty recently but I have had a lot and nothing to do all at the same time. Last night I had a huge wibble which resulted in me having a bit of a sob (actually I bawled like a baby) but I put it down to trying to let out some of the stress I have been feeling. Looking back on it it was funny really because I was having a real crisis instead of just trying to have one. My main problem was this:
I rattle!
No, I don't mean that I physically rattle or that I am having chest problems (although I am) I mean that I am like a pea in a great big drum. I'm also conflicted - I relish my time alone but I hate being lonely. When I was at Alison's she was generally asleep when I was awake but she was there at least and I had to regulate my behaviour accordingly. Now, however, I am on my own (until September) so I can do what I want or, more accurately, I can do what I want as long as it doesn't involve closing any curtains! I think I'm a bit lonely and the computer, whilst being a bit of a comfort, doesn't really fill the void. I spoke to the people that really matter last night which helped a lot and I want to thank them for it. I went to bed angry, slept badly, woke up with heartburn and came to work a bit miffed. I'm fine now though, just weirded out by the whole experience.
I still haven't managed to buy a fridge and it seems to be more difficult than buying a house. I have tried like crazy to buy one and it's alwaysreally easy until... "Yes, we do have it in stock Mr Dibbie. How is next [insert unsuitable date here] for you?". At this point the whole process crumbles. I'm a rota man these days so it's hard for me to find a time when I will be available to take delivery. I am facing a period of being in work everyday for 6 days so I just won't be around to accept delivery. I could probably persuade Alex to get the van again but if I have it delivered it is not my responsibility if it gets broken.
Forget all that - I just ordered one online and it's coming next Friday \o/. It's still quite a way away but at least I know it'll be coming and that's made me feel better.
I have been updating my weebl blog more than this place recently but there is a good reason for that. In here I have to talk about myself and remain sensible so I have been resrving myself and making sure that this is as enjoyable to read as it is to write. My Weebl blog however is just full of crap. I keep writing it and people are finding it funny almost despite itself. I suppose I'm a bit of an attention junkie and in my search for validation comments go a long way.
I've got loads of people I should be bigging up but there isn't enough room. You've made a big impact on my life recently and without you things would have been so much harder for me - You know who you are and you should know how much I appreciate it.
Today's Word: VENT
Today's Mood: Overfloating
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