Sfplehhh!
I got in shortly after 6am this morning, decided I couldn't stay awake any longer, set my alarm for 6pm (like I'd sleep for that long!!), watched some TV until about 6:45 and fell asleep. The next thing I knew my alarm was going off.
What is it with me recently? It feels like I have slept more than I have been awake in the last few days. Even as I write this I am flagging a little.
I've made a concious effort to distance myself tonight, physically and spiritually, from everything else. I need a little time to myself instead of trying to be the centre of the universe. I deplore selfishness in others and yet I know I am just the same. I try to be more altruistic than most so I will suffer fools up to a point but when I start feeling drained I start to withdraw. I'm not really down at the moment - I'm just a little freedom-struck. I spent an entire weekend away from the drudgery of day-to-day existence and it made me remember the caravan days. It made me realise that there is more to life than the work-sleep cycle I so readily throw myself into. So, yeah, I'm tired, maybe even a little pissed off but I'm also reeling from the taste of freedom. Forgive me for my self-indulgence but that's what this whole thing is all about.
Anyway...
I decided yesterday that because there are only two of us in work tonight that I should probably make sure that I am covered for the evening in terms of food stuffs. Usually what will happen is that one of the guys will go to a local 24hour supermarket and I'll go with them. Obviously that couldn't happen tonight because no one would be on the phones and who would save the world from the difficulties of email?? I abluted and shot off down to Tescos where I picked up some bargains. The best bit was that my debit card had arrived so I didn't have to dip into the legal fee fund in my other account. I'm still missing hat wallet though - I think I get too attached to things and it would be so much better for me if I could just let go.
I think I need to do a Ferris Bueller - "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it." It would be so sweet just to drop everything and have an adventure like when I was younger but time has this way of introducing you to confines. You start becoming imprisoned by ideas about money, time, commitment.
It's all a touch fragmented tonight but then... So am I!!
Today's Word: TOTALITARIANISM
Today's Mood:
I got in shortly after 6am this morning, decided I couldn't stay awake any longer, set my alarm for 6pm (like I'd sleep for that long!!), watched some TV until about 6:45 and fell asleep. The next thing I knew my alarm was going off.
What is it with me recently? It feels like I have slept more than I have been awake in the last few days. Even as I write this I am flagging a little.
I've made a concious effort to distance myself tonight, physically and spiritually, from everything else. I need a little time to myself instead of trying to be the centre of the universe. I deplore selfishness in others and yet I know I am just the same. I try to be more altruistic than most so I will suffer fools up to a point but when I start feeling drained I start to withdraw. I'm not really down at the moment - I'm just a little freedom-struck. I spent an entire weekend away from the drudgery of day-to-day existence and it made me remember the caravan days. It made me realise that there is more to life than the work-sleep cycle I so readily throw myself into. So, yeah, I'm tired, maybe even a little pissed off but I'm also reeling from the taste of freedom. Forgive me for my self-indulgence but that's what this whole thing is all about.
Anyway...
I decided yesterday that because there are only two of us in work tonight that I should probably make sure that I am covered for the evening in terms of food stuffs. Usually what will happen is that one of the guys will go to a local 24hour supermarket and I'll go with them. Obviously that couldn't happen tonight because no one would be on the phones and who would save the world from the difficulties of email?? I abluted and shot off down to Tescos where I picked up some bargains. The best bit was that my debit card had arrived so I didn't have to dip into the legal fee fund in my other account. I'm still missing hat wallet though - I think I get too attached to things and it would be so much better for me if I could just let go.
I think I need to do a Ferris Bueller - "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it." It would be so sweet just to drop everything and have an adventure like when I was younger but time has this way of introducing you to confines. You start becoming imprisoned by ideas about money, time, commitment.
It's all a touch fragmented tonight but then... So am I!!
Today's Word: TOTALITARIANISM
Today's Mood:
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