Am I a pirate?
I suppose the answer has to be yes because I have had a major sea-change in the few short hours since I last updated. I had an almost religious experience last night and it has totally changed my outlook on my current situation.
I was watching the extra features on the "Catch Me If You Can" DVD to see if I could find out which bits were true and which bits were fabrication. There was an interview with Frank W. Abagnale (the guy whose exploits are catalogued byt the movie) and he said something along the lines of:
"I have really managed to turn my life around, I started out as a criminal and I never would have dreamed that I would end up working for the FBI."
Ok, I was most of the way through a bottle of wine at the time but it struck a chord with me and I suddenly started laughing. I wasn't laughing at anything Frank was saying or, indeed, had said, I was laughing at something else - I was laughing at myself. I could suddenly see very clearly (and no it wasn't an alcoholic "moment of clarity") I had started off as a scrote and here I was watching a DVD on my widescreen TV in a house that I own. Sure it was purely material but I had got all of them from struggling. I had struggled out of the strangle-hold of my dodgy youth, struggled my way through a rocky education and struggled through a volatile and unstable personal life. I've acheived a lot and, dammit, I reserve the right to feel a bit proud of my acheivements.
I think the reason I have been dwelling on the future so much recently is that, suddenly, I have one. I'm not just living from day to day anymore, I have plans for the house, I have plans for myself and I have the chance to make them happen. It'll be a struggle but it looks like I'm pretty good at that.
Once again I want to big-up the Dibbie massif (or something) for just being there when I needed them and for putting up with my crap for so long. I will be the first to admit that just recently I have been acting like a complete [insert favourite sweary] and that isn't fair on anyone. I owe everyone a hug, some of you a bottle of wine, one of you a bottle of port, one of you a bottle of Jack Daniels, another one a tune and a special one a few more cocktails I'll see what I can do 
Love you all
Today's Word: CLARITY
Today's Mood: Good with localised showers of hope.
Updation
I've fixed the annoying lack of Archives so if you have been missing them or you are new to these pages DIVE IN!!!
I suppose the answer has to be yes because I have had a major sea-change in the few short hours since I last updated. I had an almost religious experience last night and it has totally changed my outlook on my current situation.
I was watching the extra features on the "Catch Me If You Can" DVD to see if I could find out which bits were true and which bits were fabrication. There was an interview with Frank W. Abagnale (the guy whose exploits are catalogued byt the movie) and he said something along the lines of:
"I have really managed to turn my life around, I started out as a criminal and I never would have dreamed that I would end up working for the FBI."
Ok, I was most of the way through a bottle of wine at the time but it struck a chord with me and I suddenly started laughing. I wasn't laughing at anything Frank was saying or, indeed, had said, I was laughing at something else - I was laughing at myself. I could suddenly see very clearly (and no it wasn't an alcoholic "moment of clarity") I had started off as a scrote and here I was watching a DVD on my widescreen TV in a house that I own. Sure it was purely material but I had got all of them from struggling. I had struggled out of the strangle-hold of my dodgy youth, struggled my way through a rocky education and struggled through a volatile and unstable personal life. I've acheived a lot and, dammit, I reserve the right to feel a bit proud of my acheivements.
I think the reason I have been dwelling on the future so much recently is that, suddenly, I have one. I'm not just living from day to day anymore, I have plans for the house, I have plans for myself and I have the chance to make them happen. It'll be a struggle but it looks like I'm pretty good at that.
Once again I want to big-up the Dibbie massif (or something) for just being there when I needed them and for putting up with my crap for so long. I will be the first to admit that just recently I have been acting like a complete [insert favourite sweary] and that isn't fair on anyone. I owe everyone a hug, some of you a bottle of wine, one of you a bottle of port, one of you a bottle of Jack Daniels, another one a tune and a special one a few more cocktails
I'll see what I can do
Love you all
Today's Word: CLARITY
Today's Mood: Good with localised showers of hope.
Updation
I've fixed the annoying lack of Archives so if you have been missing them or you are new to these pages DIVE IN!!!
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