Hurry on sundown... See what tomorrow brings.
I'm tired - that much is easy. I know I tired because I am feeling more emotional than usual. As an example of just how emotional I'm feeling the White Sox are playing probably as we speak and I am right here writing my blog. I could just reach over and turn on the TV but then I know I would just put off writing this until tomorrow when everything looks more rosey. As I have mentioned before the whole point of this blog is to discipline myself into writing again so one baseball game WILL NOT stand in my way.
I got in this morning and talked to the aforementioned blog/forumite for a while. I think I was being a bit crap but that, again, was because I was tired. I have had to reprogram myself today as well so I have only allowed myself 4 hours sleep. I will sleep tonight though - I can feel it. My one hope is that I didn't come across as stupid or boring but if I did - I did... Nothing can change that now.
This evening I went to X2 with Nicky - only I didn't. I actually went to see X2 by myself! We had arranged to see it together but Nicky fell asleep and didn't wake up in time to get to the cinema. We have spoken since and cleared things up so all is well again which is good. Anyway, enough for tonight because I am getting sleepy and (probably) incoherent. One last thing though:
I am finding it harder and harder to express my personal feelings here. I think it's because I know people read it and I don't want to show any weakness. I like the fact that people care enough or are entertained enough to plough through this exercise in narcissism on an almost daily basis but where do I draw the line. I think I need to be as honest as I can and just let it flow but part of me is yelling "hold on - think about your image - think about the ammunition you are handing out to others". Only time will tell if I heed the voices.
Updatey:
I've been told to stop being stupid and I couldn't agree more :o)
Today's word: RETICENCE
Today's Mood: Blue
I'm tired - that much is easy. I know I tired because I am feeling more emotional than usual. As an example of just how emotional I'm feeling the White Sox are playing probably as we speak and I am right here writing my blog. I could just reach over and turn on the TV but then I know I would just put off writing this until tomorrow when everything looks more rosey. As I have mentioned before the whole point of this blog is to discipline myself into writing again so one baseball game WILL NOT stand in my way.
I got in this morning and talked to the aforementioned blog/forumite for a while. I think I was being a bit crap but that, again, was because I was tired. I have had to reprogram myself today as well so I have only allowed myself 4 hours sleep. I will sleep tonight though - I can feel it. My one hope is that I didn't come across as stupid or boring but if I did - I did... Nothing can change that now.
This evening I went to X2 with Nicky - only I didn't. I actually went to see X2 by myself! We had arranged to see it together but Nicky fell asleep and didn't wake up in time to get to the cinema. We have spoken since and cleared things up so all is well again which is good. Anyway, enough for tonight because I am getting sleepy and (probably) incoherent. One last thing though:
I am finding it harder and harder to express my personal feelings here. I think it's because I know people read it and I don't want to show any weakness. I like the fact that people care enough or are entertained enough to plough through this exercise in narcissism on an almost daily basis but where do I draw the line. I think I need to be as honest as I can and just let it flow but part of me is yelling "hold on - think about your image - think about the ammunition you are handing out to others". Only time will tell if I heed the voices.
Updatey:
I've been told to stop being stupid and I couldn't agree more :o)
Today's word: RETICENCE
Today's Mood: Blue
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